Wednesday Afternoon


Depression is something that I constantly battle since May of last year.  Maybe a switch or two in my lil’ ol’ pea brain are completely burnt out.  Maybe it’s due to the side effects of the meds that I take.  Maybe it’s having to completely accept that there is physical damages that just can’t be repaired.  Maybe it’s due to the constant pain in my brain.  I really don’t know.

What I do know is that I eat whenever I’m having a serious bout with it (like these past 2 weeks).  And I usually eat sweets when I start eating.  I tell myself and I reconcile it by remembering that I could be doing something far more destructive such as …

  • Drinking alcohol.  Nah.  That doesn’t mix well with my meds and I avoid it even tho my oldest thinks I’m hoarding Rose’ right now.
  • Smoking tobacco.  Nah, I like to breathe too much and it was a real pain to quit 16 years ago; so why start again?
  • Doing drugs.  Drugs?  I don’t even like the meds that I have to take now.
  • Cutting myself.  Ewww!  That means having to see blood.  No thanks!
  • Arguing or being violent.  Nah.  I already have a headache.  Besides, your Grandma could probably kick my ass right now given the physical limitations that I still experience.  I know that she could definitely outrun me.

I suppose there are a ton of other worse things that I could be doing to feed my depression but I usually key on the word “feed” hence I eat ice cream and sweets cuz I like them.  I’m not obese mind you. I’m kinda Teddy Bear snuggly right now.


Tuesday Morning


I have and still like how the light shines off the wet pavement after a rain.  That and the fact the air smells so fresh and clean.  Maybe it got rid of some of the crap in the air that’s been giving my eyes such a bad time lately.  It’s hell having allergies.  Now I just have to do something about my carpal tunnel.

Ugh! It’s Monday Again!


Ahhhh!  Beautiful heat.  I’m going to miss you soon enough.  I’m going to look back at pics like these in a few weeks and wonder why we ever left each other.  The humidity is something that I could do without.  But you can’t have one without the other sometimes given this location.  Beggars can’t be too choosy now can they?

Anywho.  On with the new work week.