My tenure with my store of dreams came to an end today. The reasons why aren’t important to go over nor discuss in any further length. It’s done. Buddha says “Forgive others not because they deserve forgiveness, but because you deserve peace.”
Peace. It’s something that I have worked for over and over again thru out the years. I’m an educated man and I have the college degrees to prove that I’m an educated man but it does not mean that I am knowledgeable. All that the pieces of parchment paper mean is that I remembered enough facts about enough things over enough tests so I ended up with completing enough courses to get a piece of paper and some cake afterwards. Try telling that to someone with a degree from an Ivy League school and see how they respond. But it doesn’t mean that I’m knowledgeable about peace.
I think of this past employment and I want peace in my mind and heart. I think of the VA and I want the same. I think of the lack of intimacy in my life and that special closeness that you may have with a lover and all that I want is peace.
Life is hard. It’s harder when you have to deal with idiots and mean hearted people. It’s hard whenever you face failure or loss. It just plain sucks at times.
It’s that time of week to make the ol’ gray matter actually do what it’s supposed to do. Let’s see…
Patience is still the watch word for me at this time. Yeh. That’s still not one of my stronger disciplines. These baby steps are making me somewhat crazy. I am looking forward to some normal work hours tho.
I’ve kept my mouth shut at work so far about starting a new career. Namely because I could still be disqualified for one reason or another andI don’t need any drama if it falls threw. Still it’s odd knowing what I know and keeping a poker face all at the same time.
The snow and ice continues to melt in my part of the Hundred Acre Wood. I need to plan on getting the lawn tractor in for some maintenance and a yard cleanup once the snow and ice is gone. I’m loving the warmer temps.
I need a hair cut. I’m looking like a hippy.
It’s almost time to once again plan out my vegetable garden for the new growing year. I need to get some cow manure added to the beds shortly after the thaw so they will be ready for new plants and seeds.
There ya have it. Feel free to comment and/or wave a hardy HOWDY!”on your way thru if’n you would like to leave one.
One more hurdle cleared with just some on-line training to complete. It’s the same training that I received multiple times opver the yers and I can probably answer the questions in my sleep. You lucky few get to see a dancing chicken while I celebrate this hurdle as being completed.
It’s started once again. The big thaw that we get in the late winter. The weather forecast for the next 7 – 10 days is awesome with temps in the 40’s and even into the 50’s. Overnight lows go to the mid 30’s. I’d like to get my hopes up for an early Spring but I’m gonna hedge my bets for now since the Ice Maiden does not easily let go of what she has claimed as her own.
In the meanwhile, a bunny is apparently decided to make my backyard it’s own little art canvas as it hops all over my yard. It still hasn’t found the food dish that I set out for it. It will given some more time.