Monday Night

I was messing around with my iPhone earlier today and trying out new settings.  I may as well be doing something since I’m all caught up with work, training, etc.  It kills some time when I’m bored and really have nothing else to do.  Working from home is a fine thing but you don’t get interaction with people and that’s something that I live on.

Several different thoughts are going thru my head as I get closer to bed.  One of them is how I’ll sleep tonight which is closely followed with the thought (or rather the unanswered question) of when I’m going to get a decent night’s sleep for a change.  It still hurts and feels like raw meat as I lay there.  Then there are times when I wake up because I feel the sudden and painful crash on to the concrete floor.  I pray that these sensations pass some day soon rather than to stay with me for the rest of my life.

There’s another one that continues to haunt me and I push it back and try to stuff it once again into its Pandora’s box.  Maybe it will be answered some day.  It’s hard to describe the feeling of the hole in my soul that it causes.