Thursday Night

There are a number of times when I just sit here at night and reflect on the past day or the past few days .  This is one is one of those nights.  It’s time to cast some local friendships aside and let them die on the vine (like they haven’t already).  I think that you reach a point in your life where you are what God and your environment created.  You can change things intellectually.  I think you can change some things emotionally and even your physical being.  But the essence of who you are is a product of time, your experiences and your environment growing up.  This is your true self as the world sees you.

I come from a different time where we played hard.  It carried over into the military and served me very well there.  But I’m back here in the world and the world changed all around me when I was still inside the fence.  The world left me behind or we became separated from one another for whatever reason right, wrong or indifferent.  I’m a square peg trying to fit into a round hole.  It just doesn’t”t fit no matter how hard you try.  It’s time to bid some relationships farewell and go with God.  It’s frustrating to me.

16 thoughts on “Thursday Night

  1. Good thoughts. It’s wise to leave things behind sometimes. Time is valuable and we should not waste time on things we don’t need to waste time on. “Pling”

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  2. Uh…….. you aren’t getting rid of me that easily. I’m here for the long haul. I mean there is that matter of when I turn 90 🙂 I get what you are saying here actually. I’ve cast aside a few friends over the years for various reasons, but mostly because I don’t really deal with drama and negativity in my old age very well, so I have become a hermit , a recluse, an anti- social … Nevermind, I am just a loner 🙂

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  3. My thoughts are much was roseelaine said – we make friends, but over the years we grow, and not always in the same direction. I find as I get older that my alone time is much more important to me, and while I enjoy being with friends sometimes, too much is not good for me. It’s like reading a book you’re not enjoying – life is too short to continue forcing it.

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  4. It seems to me as I age I may need people more but am lonely around them, if that makes sense. Reflection is not always a good thing. The other side I think is resolve. Like Popeye, “I yam what I yam”

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  5. People come in and out of our lives for a reason Jim. I think the older we get the less we need people around us. Getting older can sometimes make us go into ourselves to try to find the real us. Life goes on, if that makes sense. 🙂

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