Thursday Night

There are a number of times when I just sit here at night and reflect on the past day or the past few days .  This is one is one of those nights.  It’s time to cast some local friendships aside and let them die on the vine (like they haven’t already).  I think that you reach a point in your life where you are what God and your environment created.  You can change things intellectually.  I think you can change some things emotionally and even your physical being.  But the essence of who you are is a product of time, your experiences and your environment growing up.  This is your true self as the world sees you.

I come from a different time where we played hard.  It carried over into the military and served me very well there.  But I’m back here in the world and the world changed all around me when I was still inside the fence.  The world left me behind or we became separated from one another for whatever reason right, wrong or indifferent.  I’m a square peg trying to fit into a round hole.  It just doesn’t”t fit no matter how hard you try.  It’s time to bid some relationships farewell and go with God.  It’s frustrating to me.